Holy cannoli. Six long years.

The supplements didn’t do much for him. We got married on July 4th, 2016, four years after we got together. ❤

By January 2017, we found out his testicular cancer* had recurred in his abdomen. He was given chemo, and finished that in April 2017. Been in remission ever since. It’s been watched since then. He didn’t have chemo the first time around in his 20s.

*which only left him with one to begin with, urologist said that’s why he had a low spem count, but hubby figures it was like that all along, because he never got anyone pregnant.

I left my stressful job (never should have gone to that other project within the contract, but at least when my cat died in Jan 2018, and my brother died in March 2019, I was able to properly grieve, but the pension/RRSP from my job back in my hometown I had to cash out ended up paying off debts). Then we moved back downtown (we ended up renting that half duplex our friend was looking at, she and that guy split and she’s still down home) and I got back on in Sept 2019 on another contract.

We did IVF+ICSI in November 2020 after paying it down for a year. During the great event that began in 2020. Obviously, it didn’t work, or I would have mentioned it. We got 13 eggs, 8 embryos, down to 1 and almost one barely hanging on (I should have transferred it too, but the decision was so quick). In my follow up, they said my eggs aren’t stellar, so if we ever did it again, it would probably need to involve a growth hormone, Saizen, or donor eggs. So I asked about an insemination with what’s left of hubby’s sperm and they said it’s not uncommon for people to do that as a symbolic gesture, but there is still a small 10% chance I could get pregnant. But with everything going on since then, I had to put that on hold, and now I also have to have (free) wellness tests to do any procedure again. Earliest I could get an appointment for that is Nov 8th.

My mother passed on May 20th, 2021. Pneumonia, and her cancer was starting to come back. She also seemed to have developed dementia, but I can’t be sure if it was a side effect of the pneumonia, because it can be sneaky, and it can actually do that. If only we’d gotten her the pneumonia needle.

Now I’m dealing, or rather, NOT dealing with her estate (can’t; getting the run around). Because she refused to make a will, and had debts, like a housing grant that would have been forgiven if she had lived one more year. Now it’s payable. To properly administrate the estate as the sole heir, I would need to pay $3500-$5000 (going up in January) in lawyer fees I don’t really have. So we decluttered, and now the mobile home just has furniture, and I’m foolishly paying the monthly lot fee (should have just left the bank account open long enough to pay it one last time… or not, and hope they didn’t come in by July 9th when it was cleaned by friends… but then I, or my uncle, wouldn’t have the wall hanging that’s not worth anything but sort of sentimental value) and power. I’ll have to stop doing that soon, but I hate that someone could be desperate for a house like that in the current housing crisis, and I may not even be able to rent it without spending a ton of money, because I can’t even rent or sell it without administering the estate, waiting 90 days for that, then 6 months in the Royal Gazette. And then if I did rent it, put the money in the estate account. And THEN the heating needs to be upgraded, because any new owners would not be allowed to have the 2018 nearly new oil tank.

I had savings, but, and this is supposed to be a happy thing, we bought a house up here. So the savings have been pretty much wiped.

Public trustee won’t take the estate, I tried. Renouncement (form) of claim to administration only seems to apply to sibling situations. I keep getting told by everyone to talk to a lawyer, and I’ve exhausted all avenues for free legal advice from them. Or anyone.

But wait! There’s more! I didn’t apply to convert my EI Family Caregiver Benefits as soon as possible after she died/within 4 weeks. So now I owe it back from May 23rd to July 27th unless I they approve my application for reconsideration. You know, because I was able to think clearly while trying to deal with Mom’s final expenses and grieving and decluttering, which I couldn’t do properly because no one was allowed in the house to help me before June 10th! The friends who helped me are amazing, though, I got lucky there, and can’t thank them enough.

I couldn’t get a hold of any medical professional to provide a note til July, even though it wasn’t mandatory at the time, they said they may ask for it in the future. My psychologist backdated it to April 10th, but that doesn’t seem to matter.

I’m sure there’s more I could talk about. I hate moving, but I like having our own home we can make noise and even have a dog in, that we don’t have to worry about rent going up every year (though every five years when we refinance the mortgage, yes, plus maintenance is all on us now).

Started a vlog (Burritos & Ramen on YouTube) for like a month while I was staying down home, and stopped. Maybe I can get back into it once we move in there. Here’s hoping.

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